Shit I've been trying to write......

Assalamualaikum and a very good night to any creature who even seeing this right now.

I actually turned on my laptop with the intention to stop procrastinating and finally start my assignment, but then youtube happens and my niat deviated. So instead of getting all hyped up with weird videos, here I am suddenly writing nonsense and crap.

This post is so random, so please just bear with what I decided to say.

As you all know (not really, just me), I've ended my foundation and now taking my degree in english language and literature, which I know nothing about. Oh fuck this I'm starting my assignment, bye.

This was written on Oct 2, 2017 can you believe how much time flies 

Oct 31, 2020

Somehow ended up back here 3 years later. Ahahah yeah it`s me your home girl back at it again with the 'I'm gonna do my assignment now' bs.

You know what screw this I'm not gonna write again fck u I'm out. Ciao

2020 me was an emo bitch hahahahahha

June 27th, 2021

Assalamualaikum and...... hye hahaha. 

Yall I'm not sure why I kept going back and forth here, but as you can see I've been trying to casually write back. Seems a bit like a fail but hey, I'm back again. Let's see if I'll be publishing this post this time around. 

Okay so, it seems like there is a lot to unpack here. I mean, now that it's 2021, so much had happened. Believe it or not I'm in my final year of undergraduate degree, final semester even, and off to internship. Dude, where has the time gone? Felt like just yesterday I've enrolled, and I'm now graduating? Well, it's a bit unfair though given it's still Corona time, so it's a bummer for my fourth and final year in IIUM. Oh well, what to do, what to do? :') (smile rehan smile. Even though it's hard, smile smile smile).

By the way, as I'm writing, I am currently under isolation period (10 days) in IIUM, away from my mahallah, because apparently someone at the same level as my room was suspected +ve Covid-19, so I was considered as one of her casual contacts (but to make it convenient those at the same level were regarded as CC1 or close contact. Patient was in IIUM the whole time so the source cannot be identified easily). Which kind of explain why I'm back here, writing crap. God knows how bored I am in here, cannot even see the sky properly kot from my room because too many trees dekat Safiyyah ni (well excuse me for not wanting to continue writing for my FYP, I'm allergic to that. Open Microsoft Word auto sleep lah this one). 

Anyway, give me a second, let me brain the last time I published a post.

February 23, 2017...................... 4 years. FOUR YEARS. But, make sense though. The first four para was written in Oct 2017. Pretty sure it was during my 1st year of degree. Been busy, I think.

Looking back my degree years, I think I regret a bit complaining having to go to classes at my Kuliyyah that was a little bit too far from my hostel room. Well actually, it's not that far pun, but some days when my forgetful ass decided to leave either my notebook, pencil case, room key, water bottle, or even the most important thing ever, phone, behind when I'm already halfway to class, haa that's when the journey felt a little too exhausting. Yelah, kau kena patah balik nak ambil barang, not to mention, 4th floor ye bilik aku. Stupid this one. Anyway, yeah I feel like taking back my complaints, because look at the condition now. 

Online classes. Undue screen time. Even more messed up sleeping schedules. Constant headache. Back pain. Body ache. Fatigue. Burnout. Aaaaa to name a few. It's as if nothing good has ever come out of the pandemic. 

I'm sorry, this is not supposed to be a depressed post, no no, I'm not heading towards that direction. Please come back hehe. It's just some thoughts, some things I've been reflecting. Talking about reflection, maybe some positive things did happen. Yup, definitely there is, but.... let's just brush that aside and let me keep mine to myself. As for you, try and think of something good that had happened to you because of Covid-19. I'm sure there's a few, those little ones that you often disregard. Maybe? I don't know, try lah and reflect. I know it's a difficult time for all of us, no exception. I just figured, perhaps behind those bad days, there's something to be thankful for? Every cloud has a silver lining, right? or wrong? I don't know kekeke (Laaahhh tibe ada audience hehehe but interact if you by any chance, read this). 

Forgive me, I actually forgot how to write..... Thank you, if you are reading. I pray good health for all. Better days will come, insha Allah. Until next time :)

- Rehan